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Before you read, I don't smoke :)
You, have chanced upon this utterly ridiculously interesting blog owned by me, Jean.
I don't like long introductions though.
So all you need to know is my name and that I like:
Pop, Rock, Metal, CPop, KPop, JPop,
Show Luo,
DBSK,
Hey Monday.
2 best friends,
1. Pink Care Bear
2. Pink Tortoise
I've always imagined my life as a drama serial. You know, those that always have sad moments then happy then sad. In fact, mine's more of a sad, dreary, emotional yet fast-paced one. One that never ends.
I've been blanking out ALOT these few days, and I started to backtrack and find my problems.
Everytime I feel like ending it all, my friends will always wipe away those tears that fall and pull me back up onto my feet again and wrap me with their warm, big wings and smile, an infectious smile. Then, you take it for granted and lose them all. You lose their trust, you lose their faith, and most importantly, you lose the friendship, the very close friendship that you can never gain back. You turn into a loner because there's no one else there to pick you up from the rubbles, there's no one else who understands you deep in and you have to find a way out.
I mean, mine isn't a lovey-dovey drama serial (even if it was, I won't put it on my blog for everybody to read), but one of continual self-improvement. I mean, my life sure isn't any fairytale. I don't have a Prince Charming fetching me and bringing me to his big majestic castle and marry me and make me a Queen or anything. If you get what I mean. I don't like to think of my life as reality, no matter how real and scary it is. At least as a drama serial, I know that I am the director, there are no scripts but instead, how I'm going to direct this show to a happy ending. It's not something as simple as 1, 2, 3 since all the actors/actresses have to co-operate and everything and that's what makes it a challenge, a challange for me and only myself to blame should anything go wrong. Life isn't reality, neither is it pre-destined. It's up to you to decide your own fate. And I've learnt that through hardships, through past experiences and I'm definitely not going to screw the rest of my life up.
Thank you for reading this to the end :) (or maybe not).
Love, Jean.
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